the beautiful letdown

KL Twin Towers, taken a month ago

sorry for the prolonged absence-- i've been off discovering myself, reassessing my priorities and having tons of fun!

i've got to run off yet again, busy bee that i am, but as for now, i'm lovin' life and i've never felt so glad that i'm in Malaysia! expect an update soon.

toodles,

xx Winnie

OMG HOW ANY MORE PRECIOUS CAN THIS GET?! *so* cute. and i quote kimberly01 from Twitter, FLAIL ADAM, FLAIL. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!

/flail

so guess what; after months of sitting around doing nothing, things have finally started going for me! the lady from IDP who has been handling my transfer to RMIT in Aus called up the other day, saying that if i wanted to accept my offer to RMIT i'd better do it now or else there would be no more spots. so two hours later, i pulled on my Zara denim leggings and my "i'm the most important thing in the world" shirt and made my way down to Subang and sealed the deal.

i'm officially going!!!! still can't believe it. i'm going to be somewhere else away from home for the first time ever in a couple months! not celebrating Chinese New Year next year will suck, but i guess i'll have to deal with the lack of red packets next year. i *am* getting older anyway. can't wait to see Hoi and the kids, and explore the city with an open mind. just thinking about it makes me happy :)

i received birthday money today! still thinking if i should save it or splurge on a new pair of navy blue flipflops since my usual black pair (that have lasted me 2 whole years, maybe more, btw) have been worn to death and the soles are kind of worn out *shy*. those purple ones from Zara look tempting as well...

Terry says he's going to send me a care package consisting of Cheetos after i announced over Skype that i had no idea what Cheetos were. we were playing Draw My Thing on omgpop.com, and i was kicking serious ass until Terry got the word 'Cheetos'. So he drew this packet with orang oblong shaped things inside and everybody was like CHEETOS! but little old me was still typing out things like "POTATO CHIPS" and "POTATOES" and "ONION RINGS"! -_- so after Matt got it with a triumphant "HA! BEAT YOU, MOTHASUCKAS!" i hit the "Cheater" button and went, "WTF? I'M ASIAN, WHAT THE FUCK ARE CHEETOS?" and everyone laughed at me. wtf. Malaysians don't get Cheetos okay. i was told they were something like Cheezels, and i googled them but they don't look like Cheezels to me? :( how unfair is this!?!

( cut because this image is fucking large and i'm too lazy to resize it )

From ahhbao:

The problem with LiveJournal:
We all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other.
So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me.
Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.
Ask away.

Anon commenting turned on, srs bzns questions accepted :) Just because i'm procrastinating again, and i'm far too lazy to do anything else on a lazy Wednesday afternoon.

“Reason can answer questions, but imagination has to ask them.”

i'm hearing talk of things that i used to think adults would only say... that adults would only talk about. then it hit me, like a ton of bricks, that we were adults. we're the people that we used to make fun of, the people we pretended to be in fun and games. we're journalists, we're accountants, we're scientists, we're dreamers, believers. time moved so fast, even though it seemed to go on at a crawl.

when did we all grow up all of a sudden?

( the future is a question mark of kerosene and electric sparks )

you know how life's like fucking awesome at one point and then really shitty the next? right. i'm beating myself up over a couple hundred pixels that i will never possibly ever get to meet ever in my entire life. and the thing is? i took in all that crap, and it almost is a part of me, even if it's only been for a week. and ... what are we now? are we stranded, are we floating in a pool of "what ifs" and "what abouts" and "what fors"? are we gone? are we?

smile, like you mean it.

Vietnamese cuisine doesn't taste as weird as i thought it would. between sips of soda lime, we reminisced about old times, caught up on goings-on in college, made fun of Geoffrey, and watched a perfectly generic, overrated, but yet strangely satisfying comedy about sexes and how opposites attract. it was as if i never left.

you just made my entire morning <3

( .. )

today was pretty much uneventful, besides the fact that mom brought home some bak kut teh from Bukit Tinggi for dinner, which always calls for a mini celebration! i think if you ask me where to get good bak kut teh, i would answer "that shop near Bukit Tinggi"... but i'm not going to because that shop doesn't have foo chuk! yeah i know, right. it's a culinary blasphemy. which self-respecting bak kut teh shop doesn't have foo chuk?!?!?!?!

also, in addition to the tech!talk i had yesterday with my dad..... to my absolute horror, he discovered YouTube this morning. yup. YouTube. he's spent the past, oh, i don't know, ten hours playing chinese classical opera music at top volume. i even put Boys Like Girls' Love Drunk on at high volume and the high pitched "AAAEEEAAAAAEEEAAA" even drowned out the nana na na na na na's. needless to say, i spent the majority of this morning cursing the advanced technology in our modern day and age and wishing i had a set of earplugs.

... oh wow. mom's having a go at it now; she's listening to some woman named Fong Fei Fei waddle around stage in concert in an obnoxious purple gown.



my life as i know it is over. good bye.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL WINWINWINWINWIN

"nie? what is Firefox?" this last word is pronounced "Fai-yuh-fox", and uttered really slowly.

i swivel round in my chair. "it's an internet browser, Dad. sort of like Internet Explorer, but much better. sort of. well, i hate it because it's kinda laggy for me."

"what?" dad sits himself down in the swivel chair opposite and faces his computer screen, "so does this mean that this Mozilla is fake? because i thought you could only access the Internet through IE. You explore the internet mah?" dad turns to face me (with a srs face, i kid you not). "by the way ah, what is this thing... Kanye West (pronounced Can-yee Wes) and Taylor Swift (Tay-lerh Swif)? i just go to Google and search for some news then these things pop up..."

lol'd so fucking hard.

i just so happen to love the song <3 (The Best Of You - Foo Fighters)

SO GUESS WHO PASSED THEIR DRIVING TEST AFTER LIKE, FUCKING FOREVER?

*grins widely*

( tl;dr )

PS: i found out that Patrick Swayze passed away while waiting for my name to be called and i went "NOOOOOOOOOO" irl. several people stared while one of the girls i met (she studies in Egypt and is like, *really* pretty :O) went, "Awww, I loved him in Dirty Dancing. Seriously? Fuck cancer." after i told her. we then proceeded to talk about Dirty Dancing, Ghost and Michael Jackson before going back to freaking out about three-point-turns :(

R.I.P. Patrick Swayze!

LJ, i've missed you. :(

f-list, how are you all doing? i haven't been checking up on you in a long time. i shall, soon!

my heart, that is.

it's been a long time since i felt this whole-- like i was meant to fall asleep in the passenger seat of Terence's Elantra all along, Joan in the backseat, Terence at the steering wheel. we rescued Wen Liang from college, and we bantered all the way to Kota Kemuning. the only missing piece was Huai today. we miss you!!! it's not the same without you. can't wait till we're all back together again.

we piled into the Elantra after picking me up in the morning, headed to OneUtama for some glorious food, a movie, and to cure Terence's itch to para. watching the boy make a beeline for the solitary para machine in the dark arcade once he'd exchanged his dollar note for a token was amusing -- i wonder if i'd miss things back home as much as he would when i go. Joan and i stood back and watched him flail about with some rather graceful spins added into the mix. i think i have a video of him dancing somewhere-- i'll dig it out and try to post it without being noticed.

--

i woke with a smile this morning.

DO I HAVE TO SAY ANY MORE FLAJSDFLJLASDKJFLALSJKDFLKSDJFLKDF

ETA:



*flatlines*

ten days ago, i was miserable. fast forward ten days later, and i'm still a wet dishrag, but for entirely different reasons-- similar, yes, but different. at the risk of sounding like a bad romance novela, how many ways can your heart be toyed with and tortured? i've been through a lot, and i've got more to learn, but it was more than i could handle.

i haven't been blogging lately, and i apologize-- i have been forgetting about things that used to make me feel whole, but as of late even the littlest things like writing make me feel guarded. one word, and it could rub a person the wrong way, if you know what i mean, and i don't want to take risks. sometimes silence trumps words.

i wish for this to end. and then maybe, just maybe, i'll feel a little better.

the exhaustion today was overwhelming. i summed up enough energy to make it through three hours of college, and finally wiped out on my desk: the grand finale.

i'll find time to blog soon about what's going on in my life lately. it's all a large jumble, sometimes hard to interpret and understand, even by me. but hey, life's like that, don't they all say?

indefinite.

we are all teetering on thin planks between sky-high buildings, praying that what's been supporting us up won't snap under the weight.

but what if it does? ever wonder if you'd grow wings if you fell by chance? or would you fall splat on the asphalt down below, a bloody pile of skin and bones?

but i'm trying not to think right now. all i want to do is get over to the other side, and get the fear done and over with.

i'll take a deep breath and jump in.

this is a friend -- he sent me this unexpectedly after i told him i was swamped with work i didn't want to complete.

made my day. :)