the beautiful letdown

i still don't know what i want.

am i underestimating myself, or overestimating myself? or am i just being stupidly fickle minded? just because of an attribute that i had way back when, i chose to follow this path that is now set in stone. not to mention, said attribute is an attribute that i now barely possess. great. just great.

doubting it, i am not, but what if? the question is always what if? i'm scared that i'll tumble. tumble and fall into nothingness.

what if?

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

- The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

:(

it is a known fact among the FICM 07'ers that Geoff has been/will always be teased endlessly for having small eyes. one time, he came to class after pulling an all nighter doing an assignment (cos he went out drinking and the beer made him stay up, wtf?) and he got reprimanded in class for apparently sleeping when in fact his eyes were actually open XD

classic.

so today, i logged on Facebook and clicked on the Live Feed option (i, like many other Facebook users, still don't get the point of the News Feed option) only to find this gem that made me laugh till i had a stitch in my side.



i laughed so hard.

Tash, you're awesome lah.

Dan is a good Skype/RO friend of mine, and he says the funniest shit ever about things! i met him on Dreamer several months back -- around the same time Oli (who's 14, obnoxious and annoying, but oddly good to talk to) joined the server, and he disappeared for a while, but he's back now and proves as real good company whenever i'm stressed out over stuff (which is pm every day)

yesterday we were on a Skype call talking about random things, noise from his TV in the background, and then he suddenly went "OH! Look! It's Elmo! Somebody shoot him!" out of nowhere, and then proceeded to show me a video about Elmo singing the hokey pokey song and then exploding -- SO hilarious, i swear, despite it being a little disturbing considering how Elmo used to be my favorite Sesame Street character (if you're wondering, Cookie Monster now has top spot).



i shall never look at Elmo or the Hokey Pokey song the same way ever again.

after this i found out that he has never seen Tickle Me Emo and to this i was like OMFG WHAT IS THIS BLASPHEMY so i made him watch it and made him laugh his off as soon as he saw Depress-A-Me-Street on the box HAHAH. i should mention that Mad TV is also made of ultimate win.

and just 5 minutes ago, after the usual complaints of "IM BORED OMFG" he said the most random thing about his cat:

[10:45:12 PM] Daniel Peterson: i saw kee kee whoop some other black cats ass
[10:45:16 PM] Daniel Peterson: i think he's racist.

and last week, we were in a group convo and i was like *drowns Dan* and he was like "You can't drown me, i'll just drink my way out!" and we all laughed so hard we nearly cried. CLASSIC.

and who could forget how we laughed about Bisma referring to that one GM as half comodo dragon half motorcycle HAHAHAHAHAHA made of win :')

or that one time when i was like "omfg PORRIDGE FOR BREAKFAST FML T_T" because my mom cooks really icky porridge - its all lumpy, not like how porridge in awesome dimsum restaurants are (frothy with just the right amount of water) and he was like "Porridge? What the fuck, I thought that shit got banned in the eighteen hundreds" LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL i was so amused. if i didn't love my salted duck egg porridge i would very heartily state that it should have been.

ahhh Dan you're awesome. don't let anybody tell you otherwise!

winnie is on her BB:
Idk i'm craving for some mexican food all of a sudden
But it costs a bomb

[HZ-173]:
o_o;

winnie is on her BB:
/sigh

[HZ-173]:
...
/makes her a bomb

winnie is on her BB:
LOL

... so mad at myself for wanting indomee at this time of night!

i know i live by the belief that you can eat whatever you want, whenever you want, but i can't believe i'm *already* hungry when i just had dinner three hours ago wtf? and i thought i had slow metabolism all this while (my thighs being sufficient proof of this true fact)!

sigh. super hate being a girl sometimes.

LOL

totally made my (rainy) morning!

I've lived all of my 19 years of life in one city- Kuala Lumpur, and there's still a whole lot of it for me to discover!

Today, Melissa and I wanted to host a CouchSurfers gathering in Desa Sri Hartamas (we'll get to CS in another post), and threw an invitation together helterskelter the night before. Nobody shot us a reply, so we made plans to meet up with Carsten, a traveller from the previous CS gathering and Adrian, his host.

We talked about languages and music over sushi, shared jokes with sound effects courtesy of Carsten (Kinder Eggs anyone?), and delved deep into the heart of Petaling Street in search of cheap imitation goods, where Melissa and Adrian haggled like experts with traders if Carsten found anything he liked.

I had to leave early, but I did with an open heart, and an open mind.

( ++ )

KL Twin Towers, taken a month ago

sorry for the prolonged absence-- i've been off discovering myself, reassessing my priorities and having tons of fun!

i've got to run off yet again, busy bee that i am, but as for now, i'm lovin' life and i've never felt so glad that i'm in Malaysia! expect an update soon.

toodles,

xx Winnie

OMG HOW ANY MORE PRECIOUS CAN THIS GET?! *so* cute. and i quote kimberly01 from Twitter, FLAIL ADAM, FLAIL. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!

/flail

so guess what; after months of sitting around doing nothing, things have finally started going for me! the lady from IDP who has been handling my transfer to RMIT in Aus called up the other day, saying that if i wanted to accept my offer to RMIT i'd better do it now or else there would be no more spots. so two hours later, i pulled on my Zara denim leggings and my "i'm the most important thing in the world" shirt and made my way down to Subang and sealed the deal.

i'm officially going!!!! still can't believe it. i'm going to be somewhere else away from home for the first time ever in a couple months! not celebrating Chinese New Year next year will suck, but i guess i'll have to deal with the lack of red packets next year. i *am* getting older anyway. can't wait to see Hoi and the kids, and explore the city with an open mind. just thinking about it makes me happy :)

i received birthday money today! still thinking if i should save it or splurge on a new pair of navy blue flipflops since my usual black pair (that have lasted me 2 whole years, maybe more, btw) have been worn to death and the soles are kind of worn out *shy*. those purple ones from Zara look tempting as well...

Terry says he's going to send me a care package consisting of Cheetos after i announced over Skype that i had no idea what Cheetos were. we were playing Draw My Thing on omgpop.com, and i was kicking serious ass until Terry got the word 'Cheetos'. So he drew this packet with orang oblong shaped things inside and everybody was like CHEETOS! but little old me was still typing out things like "POTATO CHIPS" and "POTATOES" and "ONION RINGS"! -_- so after Matt got it with a triumphant "HA! BEAT YOU, MOTHASUCKAS!" i hit the "Cheater" button and went, "WTF? I'M ASIAN, WHAT THE FUCK ARE CHEETOS?" and everyone laughed at me. wtf. Malaysians don't get Cheetos okay. i was told they were something like Cheezels, and i googled them but they don't look like Cheezels to me? :( how unfair is this!?!

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From ahhbao:

The problem with LiveJournal:
We all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other.
So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me.
Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.
Ask away.

Anon commenting turned on, srs bzns questions accepted :) Just because i'm procrastinating again, and i'm far too lazy to do anything else on a lazy Wednesday afternoon.

“Reason can answer questions, but imagination has to ask them.”

i'm hearing talk of things that i used to think adults would only say... that adults would only talk about. then it hit me, like a ton of bricks, that we were adults. we're the people that we used to make fun of, the people we pretended to be in fun and games. we're journalists, we're accountants, we're scientists, we're dreamers, believers. time moved so fast, even though it seemed to go on at a crawl.

when did we all grow up all of a sudden?

( the future is a question mark of kerosene and electric sparks )

you know how life's like fucking awesome at one point and then really shitty the next? right. i'm beating myself up over a couple hundred pixels that i will never possibly ever get to meet ever in my entire life. and the thing is? i took in all that crap, and it almost is a part of me, even if it's only been for a week. and ... what are we now? are we stranded, are we floating in a pool of "what ifs" and "what abouts" and "what fors"? are we gone? are we?

smile, like you mean it.

Vietnamese cuisine doesn't taste as weird as i thought it would. between sips of soda lime, we reminisced about old times, caught up on goings-on in college, made fun of Geoffrey, and watched a perfectly generic, overrated, but yet strangely satisfying comedy about sexes and how opposites attract. it was as if i never left.

you just made my entire morning <3

( .. )

today was pretty much uneventful, besides the fact that mom brought home some bak kut teh from Bukit Tinggi for dinner, which always calls for a mini celebration! i think if you ask me where to get good bak kut teh, i would answer "that shop near Bukit Tinggi"... but i'm not going to because that shop doesn't have foo chuk! yeah i know, right. it's a culinary blasphemy. which self-respecting bak kut teh shop doesn't have foo chuk?!?!?!?!

also, in addition to the tech!talk i had yesterday with my dad..... to my absolute horror, he discovered YouTube this morning. yup. YouTube. he's spent the past, oh, i don't know, ten hours playing chinese classical opera music at top volume. i even put Boys Like Girls' Love Drunk on at high volume and the high pitched "AAAEEEAAAAAEEEAAA" even drowned out the nana na na na na na's. needless to say, i spent the majority of this morning cursing the advanced technology in our modern day and age and wishing i had a set of earplugs.

... oh wow. mom's having a go at it now; she's listening to some woman named Fong Fei Fei waddle around stage in concert in an obnoxious purple gown.



my life as i know it is over. good bye.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL WINWINWINWINWIN

"nie? what is Firefox?" this last word is pronounced "Fai-yuh-fox", and uttered really slowly.

i swivel round in my chair. "it's an internet browser, Dad. sort of like Internet Explorer, but much better. sort of. well, i hate it because it's kinda laggy for me."

"what?" dad sits himself down in the swivel chair opposite and faces his computer screen, "so does this mean that this Mozilla is fake? because i thought you could only access the Internet through IE. You explore the internet mah?" dad turns to face me (with a srs face, i kid you not). "by the way ah, what is this thing... Kanye West (pronounced Can-yee Wes) and Taylor Swift (Tay-lerh Swif)? i just go to Google and search for some news then these things pop up..."

lol'd so fucking hard.

i just so happen to love the song <3 (The Best Of You - Foo Fighters)