the beautiful letdown

so guess what; after months of sitting around doing nothing, things have finally started going for me! the lady from IDP who has been handling my transfer to RMIT in Aus called up the other day, saying that if i wanted to accept my offer to RMIT i'd better do it now or else there would be no more spots. so two hours later, i pulled on my Zara denim leggings and my "i'm the most important thing in the world" shirt and made my way down to Subang and sealed the deal.

i'm officially going!!!! still can't believe it. i'm going to be somewhere else away from home for the first time ever in a couple months! not celebrating Chinese New Year next year will suck, but i guess i'll have to deal with the lack of red packets next year. i *am* getting older anyway. can't wait to see Hoi and the kids, and explore the city with an open mind. just thinking about it makes me happy :)

i received birthday money today! still thinking if i should save it or splurge on a new pair of navy blue flipflops since my usual black pair (that have lasted me 2 whole years, maybe more, btw) have been worn to death and the soles are kind of worn out *shy*. those purple ones from Zara look tempting as well...

Terry says he's going to send me a care package consisting of Cheetos after i announced over Skype that i had no idea what Cheetos were. we were playing Draw My Thing on omgpop.com, and i was kicking serious ass until Terry got the word 'Cheetos'. So he drew this packet with orang oblong shaped things inside and everybody was like CHEETOS! but little old me was still typing out things like "POTATO CHIPS" and "POTATOES" and "ONION RINGS"! -_- so after Matt got it with a triumphant "HA! BEAT YOU, MOTHASUCKAS!" i hit the "Cheater" button and went, "WTF? I'M ASIAN, WHAT THE FUCK ARE CHEETOS?" and everyone laughed at me. wtf. Malaysians don't get Cheetos okay. i was told they were something like Cheezels, and i googled them but they don't look like Cheezels to me? :( how unfair is this!?!

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Vietnamese cuisine doesn't taste as weird as i thought it would. between sips of soda lime, we reminisced about old times, caught up on goings-on in college, made fun of Geoffrey, and watched a perfectly generic, overrated, but yet strangely satisfying comedy about sexes and how opposites attract. it was as if i never left.

the exhaustion today was overwhelming. i summed up enough energy to make it through three hours of college, and finally wiped out on my desk: the grand finale.

i'll find time to blog soon about what's going on in my life lately. it's all a large jumble, sometimes hard to interpret and understand, even by me. but hey, life's like that, don't they all say?

AM

SO BLEEPIN' EXHAUSTED

and i don't even know why.

*melts into puddle on tabletop*

out of my two and a quarter years in Taylors' University College, never have i questioned my want and ambition to pursue a career in Journalism...... until today.

whyyyyyyyyyyyyy must they put us through writing long academic essays about the change in the mass media and why or how the Internet can change us all? and the questions, meh, they boggle the mind. one little step can throw you overboard and earn you a big fat zero, which is an academic faux pas in the Loo household.

T_T i'm so afraid, yet i want to get these stupid essays done. throw in a huge procrastination habit and you get mayhem and infinite "FUCK MY LIFE"s directed at myself several times a day. SIGH.

i only hope to emerge from this semester unscathed :(


ps: also, i miss you, wolfparades, stfu_stfd, thedonutgirl, ahhbao and the rest of the wittybitches!!!! i ALMOST miss Teppan and Monica's ridiculous-but-endearing e-fish throwing as well. sigh. when will they give us back our boards, WHEN?

pps: i am hungry.

ppps: yes, i do realize that the above post-post-script is rather unrelevant to the post-script above it, but who says that they have to be relevant anyway? a-HA! got you there, wtf! *trots downstairs to make self cup-noodles

pppps: OH. and this morning when i put on my ancient pair of Topshop jeans and fading silver Zara belt, i realized that this time i had to tighten my belt a little more than usual. sigh see lah, the kind-of-positive-but-negative-also side effects of stress :S

ppppps: Adam Lambert's performance on Idol today made me tear up on the sofa. T_T and i never tear up when i watch performances on TV, wtf.

Flo: ehhh we should have told you to wear wlack and bhite!
me: ?!?!?
Flo: ohhh i mean black and white HAHAHA

says the woman who was so happy to see packets of Reese's butter cups in Village Grocer's that she sang :p

so i wore heels to college today for a presentation, and i'm still wearing them now, in IDM class. all i want to do is yank them off my feet and hurl them in the general direction of the wastebasket. sigh. *misses comfy black Havainas*

the things us girls have to wear sometimes :\

12.33 am. i just said goodbye to Davis before logging off for the night on RO. part of me wonders when i will ever grow up and quit that game; and each time i do the kid in me replies, clenches her tiny little fists, stomps her Kiko-clad feet and yells a feisty "NEVER!". i'm having too much fun to grow up. 'sides, who says computer games are for kids anyway?

tomorrow's a Thursday. in your world, it might mean "FINALLY! ONE DAY BEFORE FRIDAY!!!!!!" or "FINALLY, THE WEEK'S GOING TO END!" but to me it means doom, because doom = Management class. our lecturer, Miss. Suzanne, makes the class interesting with her syok-sendiri sense of humor (where we all end up laughing at her, not with her), but i still fall asleep in lectures as usual with the exception of last week (which was one hell of a feat, because last week's lecture was all about history of management o_o). worse, this week, she's going to be giving us closed-book essays to do in tutorial classes.... i am so fucked.

oh my god, today's idol... i don't know what to make of it, lol. i'm not a huge fan of country music, in fact, i almost dreaded this week because Adam's performance would be... well, interesting, and it was in a sort of dazed, confusing way. i don't know what to make of it. lots of eyesmex at the camera, yes (omnomnom), but uh, i don't know about the song. am not too crazy about it, either way. however, i totally enjoyed Kris' and Matt's performances-- DAMN those boys can sing! i find myself wanting to hear more and more of Matt each week; his Human Nature cover already getting heavy play on my iTunes<3 and no, Glambert, i am not ditching you! never shall i ditch the maestro of falsettos, black eyeliner, nailpolish and blue-highlighted hair<3

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bedtime! dad just yanked open the door and yelled at me! sort of miss the days when he wouldn't so much as bat an eye when i stayed up :(

tonight, i shall go to bed dreaming of better days that aren't filled with homework, sad thoughts and class. and maybe i'll end up in a land many yesterdays ago, in that smelly old classroom on the first floor.


random plug: Coffee Bean's Green Tea/Mango fusion ice blended! <3

still feelin' the Mraz vibes- couldn't stop humming The Dynamo Of Volition in class today, and i unconsciously kept doing the little hand moves he had us all doing last night! yes, that song was that fun :) he's in Singapore tonight; i hope you Singapore people get to go and have as much fun as i did!

speaking of university, goshhhhhh i'm so tired, and it's only the end of the first week of semester three. how the hell am i going to manage twelve more?!

Intro To Digital Media was kind of fun today, we're going to learn about cameras, apertures, shutter speeds, how to manually use a video camera... make movies... it's going to be so fun, i almost can't wait, if i didn't know that it does involve lots of hard work as well. sigh. however, i fell asleep in Management, and we have SO many readings, and i can barely even stay awake through ONE lecture, how in the world am i supposed to stay awake for twelve more? guess i'll have to bust my butt even harder this sem to get good results, which doesn't thrill me at all in the slightest.

suppose i'll go hibernate now and recharge my batteries before i run out of juice. bears made of fluff need their Z time too, yknow.

- i really really really miss my bed.

- we had Miss. Nicole for Media Law today; she made tons of comments about how pregnant she was; she claimed to be four months, but she still looks as if she's not even pregnant at all, LUCKY BITCH. ngh i bet i would have looked like a blimp if i were her. not that i want to get pregnant at all, wtf, but just saying.

- campus is rather empty this time round; it's usually so packed with people you have to dodge round things like booths with boiling hot oil-filled woks to get where you want to go to (without burning yourself and/or setting your handbag on fire) but today it just looked so... bare. i don't know if i'm happy to be back or not.

- i fucking hate No Fear. childish hate, yes, but still. fucking. hate.

- I MISS THE PENGUINS. ESPECIALLY CYNTHIA PENGUIN QUACK QUACK. :( i haven't talked to all of you in what feels like a billion years! WE SO NEED THE BOARDS BACK JFC regardless of our feelings for ~that band~

- totally need a new wardrobe, and fast. i can't stand going back to college with the same old clothes! i need pieces/accessories/jeans!! aaaah!

- Mraz on WEDNESDAY! i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait!!!

and so, you let it go to start again

i guess i'm not going to Australia this semester. the first semester of the second year of my Journalism degree starts in approximately one week, and there's still no goddamn e-mail from RMIT. as if i can pack up and leave in a week, if i ever do get that e-mail. i'm going to try applying again for July's intake; that's if they have one, of course. just to fill you in if i haven't told you what's up about Australia yet: i applied for a transfer to RMIT University, Melbourne in early December, thinking it would be a breeze. i am so insanely stupid. should have applied to more. i really want to leave this place. i need a breath of fresh air.

mom is bringing Wilson and i out to dinner. Bella Italia again, which means an okay pasta dish and a (now) mediocre wild mushroom soup. fun.

dear Livejournal,

i'm sorry for having abandoned you for so long, only visiting you when i needed a quick (or a long) fix of ficlets randomly pulled up from my favorite slash writers (by the way, readers, read this), or maybe a quick inspirational tour of other peoples' Moleskin planners at organizers, but what else did i need to use you for? i haven't been up to much lately except for Ragnaroking my ass off and managing in-game drama, and people here wouldn't understand what i would talk about anyway.

aaaaanyway, here are some brief details about my life so far:

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see you when i return (hopefully without a sunburn)!


ps: HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, FOLKS! :D
xxoo Winnie

fucking fuck on a stick

i just found out what i got for Global Societies and I AM NOT HAPPY :(

brb going to drown myself in roti planta and endless glasses of teh ais.

fml.

i was originally going to write this long post about how i'm probably going to study in Australia next year, provided i get accepted by my university of choice, but the devil on my right shoulder told me i should make my way downstairs to watch Grey's Anatomy and make you all starve for details instead, so......

Dr. McDreamy beckons. toodles!

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pedop33n wants your babiez

ironic that pete's in a bear costume, really because we've been talking about Pete's pedobear tendencies for a while now.

i haven't been posting regularly because of university and stupid 2500 word essays-- the shitty argument research essay types that make you want to scratch your own eyeballs out or throw yourself over a cliff to your death. yeah.

all week, i've been chanting this one line: "I WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS WEEK" and i was just chanting to myself before i stumbled upon this picture on fbr_t and burst out laughing.

THREE MORE FUCKING ASSIGNMENTS TO THE END OF THIS SEMESTER AND A THREE MONTH LONG HOLIDAY.

and I WILL MAKE IT. I WILL I WILL I WILL I WILL.

eta: thank the lords for a superspeedy internet connection. i'm currently downloading the latest episode of 90210 at a surprising speed of 172kb per second. FUCK YEAH, I'M GOING TO HAVE SOME 90210 WHEN I WAKE UP 5 HOURS LATER!

HAI LJ.

i have abandoned you for quite some time.

i just revamped my layout, and i took like an hour plus making my new header, which i love to bits just because Jon is sticking his tongue out in that cute little way that makes me want to give him a huge bear hug.

anyway, it's four days to the MTVAA's, and i'm so bloody excited to the point that i dream about it every night and jerk awake at seven am only to realize it was a dream and then fall back into a fitful slumber right up till noon.

THREE MORE DAYS TILL I GET TO SEE JARED LETO IN REAL LIFE OMG
*shoots self*

and then AFTER the MTVAA's it's still party time because two days later, there's Panic at the Disco!!!!!!! i'm so fucking stoked, i've been waiting for them for YEARS. i never knew this day would come. :')

i haven't been f-listing for so long and i'm so sorry, i also have been gone from fandom communities for like months now, idk i just lose interest in some or get too lazy to read stuff. i will try to be active again, i promise omg but my semester is starting and everything, and my new timetable sucks.

ahhh nevertheless, i've missed you lovelies. tell me how YOUR week has been?

I SWEAR


my procrastination habit has to stop.

I don't know if i can take the stress any more.

It's taking a toll on my health and my grades and ... everything.

I just want the semester to be over with.